Well so far 2022 has been a little rough for us to say the least. Week 1 Olivia has influenza and RSV. Weeks 2-3 the rest of us had COVID. Week for was even worse yet. I had been looking forward to the end of January as I would be hitting 12 weeks, which is when I typically start feeling better in my pregnancies.
I did feel better for a few days, only to start getting sick on Wednesday with increasing bouts of fatigue, lightheadedness and vomiting. By the end of the week, Seth brought me into the Emergency Room because I had not kept any food or liquids down for over 24 hours and could barely stand without passing out. After getting fluids, I was not much better. We were back the next day for more fluids. The doctors' best guess was that I was still fighting off COVID and my symptoms were being exacerbated by pregnancy, causing a sort of hyperemesis gravidarum (severe morning sickness).
I spent the next week lying on the couch, eating very small, very bland meals at a rate of one bite every 5-10 minutes and trying to stay hydrated. Anything more and I couldn't keep it down. Other than that I didn't do much other than send lesson plans in each day for my students (who sent me a very nice Get Well card - in Spanish, of course!) After that short experience with hyperemesis-like symptoms, I think women who go through months of HG deserve a medal of honor from the president.
Seth was a trooper through it all - doing all the laundry and cooking, plus running the kids wherever they needed to go and bringing me back and forth from the hospital 4-5 times. We also had a ton of help from outside: our parents came to make meals, help with cleaning and laundry, run kids to appointments that Seth couldn't make, pick Olivia up from daycare, etc. We also received meals from several friends and from all the staff at St. Edward's school.
By Thursday dealing with infection and the pregnancy proved to be too much for me and my water broke. We went in for an ultrasound, fully prepared to see the baby with no heartbeat. We were not prepared to see our baby alive and kicking with a strong heartbeat, just without an amniotic sack within which to grow and thrive. We were taken up to Labor and Delivery as we sadly waited overnight for the inevitable miscarriage. Seth's sister was there to be with us, which was nice and the nurses were fantastic.
The next day - February 4th at a little past noon, I passed little Lucia Josephina at 13.5 weeks, and we were able to bring her remains home with us. She was 5 inches long and had a perfect little body. It really was amazing to be able to see the tiny hands, feet, ribcage, collarbone, ears - even fingernails.
She was only with us for 3 months, but she's still very much a part of our family and we look forward to meeting her in Heaven someday. From the start, I felt that she was here for a reason and had a specific purpose in life. I was thinking long-term, but she proved to impact our lives and teach us important life lessons about the sacredness of each and every life, trusting in God and letting go within a very short time.
This is probably long enough for one post so I will leave you with this picture of Lucia's handprints and footprints (in our wedding rings) and maybe share more later.